Maeve’s advice for a healthy relationship with food:
No foods are bad in and of themselves. The key to a healthy relationship with food is dietary flexibility. If you’re totally craving something, have it! The more you allow yourself to have something when you want it in a healthy proportion, the less likely you will be to binge later.
On that note, I think that the key to getting out of the binge/purge routine is to stop restricting altogether. It is neither easy to stop denying yourself, nor to unlearn the bad food/good food script. However, when one is able to relinquish the restrictive mentality, the binge/purge symptoms will disappear along with it.
I think using apps to log your fitness and count calories is never a good idea. It stimulates an obsessive, and overly-calculative relationship to one’s eating and exercise that I think goes south very quickly. Though a lot of health and fitness magazines preach ‘mindful eating,’ I think that this can send the wrong message to someone who is all too familiar with thinking about what he/she is eating.
In that vein, I eat by a very simple mantra: eat when you’re hungry, stop when you’re full. A go-to plate for me consists of a protein source, whole grains, and veggies. That being said, however, it will not, in fact, affect your weight to indulge in a cheeseburger and fries once or twice a week or have that slice of chocolate cake. Remember, flexibility!
Lastly, don’t weigh yourself more than once a week (at most). Perhaps, aim for every couple of weeks. Day to day fluctuations are not an accurate reflection of one’s weight gain or loss; rather, it has a lot more to do with how much water you’ve been drinking and the last time you pooped. Personally, I don’t even bother to weigh myself anymore. Instead, I like to use my favorite pair of jeans as a monitor. If they’re feeling tight, cut back on the desert. Or, if they’re especially lose, I check in to see if my nutrition and exercise are balanced in reference to one another.
I’m on break for a bit with nothing to do but watch tv and eat pumpkin cheesecake– as such, I thought I’d try to do a few posts and updates before my last term of college begins (yikes).
1) the job search is a daunting one. I really don’t want work to be solely a money-making thing or something that perpetuates violence. This is harder to distinguish than I realized. I recently applied to a company with a client that manufactures leggings, or so I thought. With a tad more research (from my boyfriend), however, I realized the client is actually a MISSLE manufacturer. classic mix up, amirite?
I have my heart set on one job which is a journalist-type position which I see as having a lot of room for growth, but of course I don’t know the odds of landing that, and so in the meantime I’m halfheartedly looking elsewhere as backup.
I recently had a sad conversation with a friend which I thought really high-lited the issue at hand: she said, it’s really easy to become a banker and really hard to become a professor. the way our college is set up it’s a sort of feed into the world of finance and if you work hard you’re nearly guaranteed a job in that world. you’re not however, guaranteed tenure, and it really is quite unappealing to think of being an unemployed PhD.
So as usual I’m fighting to pursue what I’m passionate about.
2) yoga is improving my relationship with myself, and also the way I treat food. being slightly more in touch with my needs (which my time on the mat creates) is the difference between eating packaged dessert all day (famous amos!!) or enjoying something special after dinner (cue pumpkin cheesecake). I’ll be posting more on this later BUT for people who are off on break I hope this is a time to relax and re-center and consider what is important– it’s hard not to act mindlessly or to make decisions out of fear, but I’m really hoping to be more aware of when that’s happening and to change my actions.
but in an effort to take care of myself (see above pictures) I won’t be blogging for the next few months (and obviously haven’t been for the last few months either). Returning for my senior year of college is proving a lot more difficult than I’d anticipated with classes, friendships, relationships and the general chaos/neurosis of my mind. Unfortunately, maintaining this space isn’t something I have the time or energy for, especially as a lot of things in my personal life are not things I’m ready to talk about yet..also, on that note, I didn’t intend for this blog to be solely about me, and until I have more time to dedicate I’m worried it will become too much like my diary, which it sort of has been the last few months.
I’m looking forward to returning in late March to continue talking about eating disorders, mental health, and overall wellness. In the meantime, I’m doing my best to take care of myself and hope you are as well (not sure who I’m addressing there but it seemed like an appropriate thing to say). Until then…